Hello beautiful souls, it’s been a while. Let’s catch up.
In my last post I wrote about my grandmother. My heart was splintering as I came to terms with the fact that the cancer she was fighting had become terminal. The chemo was stopped, seeing as it was causing more harm than good. The family readied themselves for the inevitable as palliative care became the norm. Well, Gran had one more trick up her sleeve.
As the chemo left her body she got stronger. That was to be expected and we rejoiced. What wasn’t expected was that she continued to get stronger. At her last check up the scans revealed she is in remission.
You read that right. The woman with terminal cancer has managed to fight it into remission. I didn’t know that was possible.
I was meeting a friend at a cafe when I got the news. You could have pushed me over and met no resistance, I was so shocked. It’s taken me nearly a month to get my head around it. The only thing she’s been taking, apart from mild painkillers and insulin, is cannabis oil. I’m not a doctor or research scientist, but if that’s what’s helped her, fantastic. If it’s a placebo effect, I really don’t care. She’s still here.
That’s the other thing. She’s still here but I have barely seen her. I’m fighting my own, much smaller, battle. Clinical depression. I’m not ready to open up about that yet, but given time I will. You see, I’m still absorbing that as well. It’s not that I reject the idea, it’s more that I’m surprised by it and how it has been quietly affecting my life for longer than I could have possibly imagined.
All of this has, surprisingly, effected my writing only a little bit. I’ve placed Balance to one side for the moment. I’ve not given up on it, but I am yet to find the right home for it. I’m tossing around the idea of self publishing but that is something that will have to wait. There is a lot more involved with self publishing than I can currently handle, if I’m truthful. I can be a perfectionist and I’m afraid that side of me would take over. But it is something I think I would like to do.
I’ve finished the first draft of Rosie. I can’t remember if I’ve told you guys or not, but the title for that story has now been changed to A Plagued Life. That is sitting to one side so that I can come back to it with fresh eyes. The current plan is to start editing it in May.
A new story has been started! This one is different from the other two with more of a sci-fi bent to it. It’s about an AI expert who has always been obsessed with the story of Snow White, in particular the mirror owned by the wicked step mother. Eventually she creates an AI version of the mirror, with the mandate that it must always tell the truth. But what will happen when the mirror realises that it’s creator broke the law? A law that says the mirror should not exist.
It is a story that is intriguing me to write because of the ethical implications. It’s taking some twist and turns I had not expected, but I’m really enjoying writing it.
I’m also attempting to enter writing competitions every month for this year. So far I’m on track, but it is only April 😉
I’ve also stopped writing for Her Heart. If you follow Her Heart on Instagram you’ll see that it is going through some major changes. There are no hard feelings and I may return to write articles for them once things settle down, but for the moment our interests are diverging.
And that’s it! So what about you, lovely souls? What have you been up to? Let me know in the comments or DM me if you prefer 🙂
Most importantly though, have an awesome and creative week!
xx
Samantha House 